SECOND WEEK AT WORK

This is some of the work I've done at the office. Today was my first official day and it sucked! I didn't do anything only some headshots that I had left to do from Friday (and it was the only fun part of today's job). I talked with one of my co-workers about Doctor Who and that was pretty much it. I spent the whole morning checking Flickr and Facebook; it was a nightmare. I was falling asleep because I only slept like three hours, I was also hungry and bored. Hopefully tomorrow it'll be more profitable (I hope).

Also, I had a very awkward moment with one of my male co-workers. I don't know how to read his attitude but he followed me to were I had my bike and wanted me to go with him to eat lunch. We've only spoken a few times and I've joked around with him a little but I've done that with almost everyone in the office. It was awkward because he's like 18 years old and in the little experience I've had with teenagers and as a former ex-teenager, kids his age are so intense. He said goodbye and then stretched his arms in a very awkward way; he then proceeded to hug me. I was so uncomfortable to be honest, I don't like people to be so close to me especially in a physical way but I didn't want to hurt his feelings or something.

Have you ever had an uncomfortable moment with a co-worker?

NEW

Well, I hate to be changing my blogs all the time. I used to be on Blogger but I'm going to try Wordpress for a while, mainly because I hate the layouts there. I try to make my photos look as perfect as I can, and showcasing them in my blog is extremely important for me. So anyways. August has just begun and it's exciting! Another semester begins with new classes and new people. Everything is new about August and I'm not very sure if I like it or not, but I guess I'm starting to get used to it. 

Just today I finished my training at my new job; I will be one of the photographers and the cartoonist for our university's newspaper. To be honest it's very intimidating because now my photos have a purpose and I'm responsible to deliver them and fill everyone's expectations. 

Today we finally went to our office, which is new, so everything is a mess, but we were all very happy for the space provided to us. It seems that it's going to be nice since most of my co-workers are very nice people (at least the one's I've talked to). So I'm not that intimidated anymore. My boss is a wonderful lady who seems to care a lot about us, she has this motherly attitude that makes me feel very comfortable, even though some people say she's difficult to please, she doesn't seem scary; she just looks like someone who wants to do her job. I don't know, maybe I'm being quick about my observations, but to be honest, I've felt very comfortable around everyone and I'm sure that's a good sign. 

Now that I already experienced what it is to be working, I feel ready to make the next step in my life: moving out of my parents place and be independent. I feel this urge about leaving, getting my life planned and put everything together, but I still need to figure out how and when I will make this decision. Nonetheless, I'm very happy about the confidence that I've gained and the growth I've made as a person. Nowadays I feel more like an adult (even though my room is a mess). I'm encouraging my boyfriend to get a job, I mean, we are two adults in their twenties who still live with their parents and have to report to them everyday. There are many silly rules that get in the way in our relationship most of the time and I'm sick of it, I really want to take the next step in my life and in my relationship with him. 

This is one of my co-workers before taking the staff photos. We were assigned to that task and we got the chance to talk. She's a cool girl.

This is my boyfriend testing his new Konstruktor camera.

He was very excited about it.

Some kids dancing at the park.

I was spying people with my new telephoto.

This is my pal Luna being super cute.

 Her fashion sense is amazing, I love everything about her outfits. This is a beautiful bag that has this hologram. The eye opens and closes depending on how you see it.

More people dancing at the park.

I don't know, lately I've felt like a new person, I feel like I can do many things and I feel very good about myself. Sometimes I feel a little bit depressed though because I want to do such things but I don't know where to begin. I guess I just need a break from all the things I've been doing and try to be out there more often. As a photographer I feel more confident, while I know I'm not the best and that there is a long way for me to feel truly successful, I'm very comfortable with my work. I no longer feel that competitive rage inside of me and I don't care what other people do or don't do. I can appreciate other people's work with honesty and share tips and thoughts about their work or my work. I see other photographers as peers rather than rivals and that takes a HUGE load off my shoulders. I don't feel judged anymore basically because I stopped judging other people. I'm also trying to approach my clients, try to become friends with them or at least know a little bit about themselves, that gives me a lot of confidence and I feel great. I don't know, I really hope this year to end wonderfully. 

Good news

I'm so excited! And I should probably not make a big deal out of this - I must admit I am even a little bit scared of spilling the news and spoiling everything - but I got a job offer. It's not permanent though, it's just going to be for a couple of weeks, but it is a huge opportunity for me. I will be working as a Still Photographer in a film (is that correct? I don't know how you're supposed to say that in English). I will be payed and the best thing is I can put that in my resumé! I lack of job experience and that is always something that makes me feel insecure when wanting to apply for jobs, so I never do it. 

The sum is actually quite convenient for me because I might get payed up to 10K pesos, which is like 750~ (is not that much, I know but for me it is, believe me) and the minimum amount I will be payed will be 5K. It all depends on the amount of days they will spend on filming. The thing is, I'm an idiot; I already know how I will spend my money and I'm so very excited! 

I hopefully will buy this baby; even if I get payed the minimum sum, when doing the pesos-dollar conversion, I get the exact amount I need to buy it. It is like a dream come true and I'm so scared because I'm afraid that something happens and everything gets ruined. It's a huge responsibility over my shoulders but I guess this is what it feels like having a job and I'm not really used to this feelings.

The script is very violent and I'll have to travel. In my country things are crazy and I'll have to go to one of the most violent cities here. Some shootings will be held at certain districts of the city that are known for high crime rates plus, some scenes will contain some gore (or a lot of blood for what I know) and raw language. I read the whole thing a couple of hours ago, just to know what kind of scenes I must focus on and imagine the whole thing in my head; I think that's giving me a little bit of advantage. It's not going to be a super production but a lot of money will be spent there, that's for sure.

Hope everything turns out well and if it does, in a couple of weeks, probably in a month, I might have the lens I've been wanting to buy for years.

Edit: I might get this as a present:

When did I become lucky? This is getting scary.